Song Discussion
By jenny | November 22, 2009
We recently came across a blogger who was addressing our song, What Do I Know of Holy. While we don’t usually comment on people’s personal site in regards to our music, this one intrigued us. You can find Mark’s take on the song at his ambitious and creative blog: revivelutheranhymns.blogspot.com. Our base player, Travis, responded first and Mark has written back with a few more questions on his blog. I am answering the second round of questions, but my answer is way too long to fit in the comment section of his blog, so I am posting it here.
We appreciate Mark and what he is endeavoring to do with music and hymns. And, as always, we love interacting with Christians who think, offer opinions and criticism, and choose to enter into open dialogue with intelligence and respect. Thank you Mark. If you have thoughts to contribute, please leave comments on either of our blogs!
Hi Mark,
I hope you don’t mind, but I would love to join the conversation, as I am one of the writers of the song What Do I Know of Holy. We appreciate open dialogue and love the chance to explore lyrics with other believers, so thanks for allowing us to join in your community to do so.
You ask how we go deeper with Christ and how the words of this particular song encourage this? Let me address the latter part of that question.
This song is completely confessional in nature.
It is not meant to encourage people or to give them guidance on how to deepen their relationship with our Lord. If anything, what I hope people would hear in this song is a very weak girl, who often doubts, sometimes professes things that have not truly penetrated my heart, and realizes she has spent a long time paying lip service without having a clue of the true holiness God possesses. If anything, this song should give people the freedom to be honest.
As a girl who was raised in the church with two ordained parents who have doctorates in theology and ministry, listened to nothing but Christian music, and now travels the country leading other believers in worship; I was shocked to have the blinders removed from my eyes (after being touched by the reading of Isaiah 6) and to realize that after all my exposure to God, I had never grasped the holiness of the Lord the way Isaiah did in the passage.
I represent a generation that has come up with, “Jesus is my homeboy” and other slang phrases that reduce Jesus to a trendy, cool guy. God used Isaiah 6 in particular to say to me, “No Jenny, I am the Lord God. I am not anyone’s homeboy. I am Holy.”
And this song was born.
I am guilty of making God too small, too worldly. As if God was a kind grandpa who thinks I’m adorable; a best friend who only wants to tell me good things; a dad who thinks I am perfect; a mom who just wants to hold me and give me kisses.
And while I believe the Lord interacts with me in those nurturing ways; I realize that I have spent much of my life within the walls of a church (universal) that has turned the creator of the universe into pizza parties, program’s, and trite worship songs. I found myself guilty of forgetting God’s holiness in the midst of all that. So the answer to your question is that this song is not really meant to encourage, in any practical way, a believer in God to go deeper (though I believe that it does encourage in some mysterious way). Rather, it is my confession to the Lord.
Second question
“In what way is the fact or the message that Christ is “mighty to save” empty according to how the singer means it?”
Great question. In the same way that I can apologize to my husband but not really mean it or care. In the same way I can sing a worship song but not actually be communing with the Lord. In the same way I can participate in communion and be thinking about what I will fix for lunch and if I can slip out and beat the other moms to the nursery. In the same way I can study a passage of scripture and know the history, context, Greek, and commentaries on it, yet not apply it to my life.
God’s words are not empty. Scripture is God’s story of redemption. It is beautiful and true. And in its pages, if your eyes are open, you catch a glimpse of a very holy God. We cannot know God completely through scripture, nature, revelation, worship, etc… but I believe He allows us to get oh so close; as close as this side of heaven will allow for. And God absolutely uses the words of scripture to accomplish this.
Problem is, we lose sight of God amidst our busy, materialistic, simple-minded, “Jesus is my homeboy” sugary American church culture and we start doing what we humans do best: pretending. And that is when the words of scripture become empty inside of us.
The words themselves are not empty, but the person receiving the words is.
Scripture can become mere writing on a page that goes in one ear and out the other if our hearts aren’t actively engaged.
Is God mighty to save? Absolutely.
Can those words ring hollow, empty, and untrue inside of me? Unfortunately, yes. I have found that tradition can be deadly for the soul.
When I came face to face with God through the Isaiah 6 passage, it was unlike anything I had ever imagined and far from who I thought I was worshipping. Like Isaiah experienced, I was in the presence of this holy, bright, wise, powerful, loving, majestic God whom the angels worshipped with passion. My words failed me as my eyes were opened to a God I had never known. And I fell to my knees in that worship service and thought…
Oh my gosh. What do I know of Holy?
Is he fire? Is he fury? Is he sacred? Is he beautiful? Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. Of course He is.
And did I miss this? Yes. I have spent my entire life in church and somehow, I missed the depth of God’s holiness. And just a taste of his glory has changed everything for me.
This song simply reflects my journey of showing up at God’s front door and being invited in. And then, much like this blog, my childlike, desperate, rambling confessions to the Lord began… including, “Lord, I’m sorry for thinking that I figured you out. I am sorry for allowing your words to be empty words on a page. I’m sorry I never worshipped you the way you are worthy to be worshipped… I’m sorry.”
And that is, from the writer’s perspective, the meaning behind this song.
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20 Comments
Will on November 22, 2009 at 5:46 am.
Thanks! It's absolutely fascinating to hear the background from your perspective.
What Do I Know of Holy was my favorite song on the album, the vanity of my religious efforts is so convicting. If I'm just about a show, I'm about nothing.
Lisa on November 22, 2009 at 2:51 pm.
I love hearing how this song came about! 'What Do I Know of Holy' is a song that I can really relate to, in exactly the way you share it came to be. I am SO guilty of going through the motions and thinking it's enough. I've come to a place of discontent because it's NOT enough…I just don't know what to do about it. I know we shouldn't do away with church, but honestly, it's all I can do to make myself go there and do all the programs and 'ministries'. I used to be ok with that. I'm not now. I don't know where I fit. I don't know what it's supposed to look like anymore. I know I need to get my heart right.
Thanks for sharing the origins of the song! It blessed me this morning
Vanessa on November 22, 2009 at 4:33 pm.
awesome response. That is exactly how I took the meaning of the song. This song touches me in such a deep way, I absolutely love it!!
Anonymous on November 22, 2009 at 9:32 pm.
Hi Jenny, I love this song and enjoyed hearing your answers about it!
Have a good time at College of the Ozarks-the view is beautiful! (Branson is the best! I live in MO and get to go there frequently.:))
SavedByGrace on November 22, 2009 at 10:15 pm.
It's really cool to hear the background of the song and for me it really came through in the song in the way you wanted it to. I love how the song is so real and I also love how it's like a page in a diary, or a prayer that is cried out. Thanks for the song and the blog post.
A fan
The Shirley's on November 23, 2009 at 2:23 am.
thank you so much for your response to the song. I connected with What Do I Know of Holy immediately the first time that I heard and I couldn't help but play it over and over again. I think that the line that touched me the most is "I think I've made you too small." Our God is the God of this whole world and I know that I take that for granted. Thank you so much for pouring out your love for the Lord on this blog. I'm blessed every time that I read.
Amberg on November 23, 2009 at 4:32 am.
Hi Jenny, thanks so much for joining the conversation. I feel I like I've already been talking to you for a while, since your song has been in my head for a week now.
I hope you don't mind that I posted a response on my blog http://revivelutheranhymns.blogspot.com/, since my response got sort of lengthy too!
Thanks again for your response!
Kara on November 23, 2009 at 6:19 am.
What Do I Know Of Holy is my favourite song on your album. When I first bought it I just played it over and over again (seriously it was weeks before I realised there were actually other great songs on there).
I was just thinking about this today on a plane. How our generation has gotten so into the "Jesus is my best friend" line that we've forgotten what it means to fear God. As really truly fall to our knees because they won't hold us up fear.
I don't know how to balance the two out. I just know that I've got too much of the first, and not nearly enough of the second.
Anonymous on November 23, 2009 at 5:27 pm.
I have always wondered what sparked the writing of this song. Thank you for sharing this with us (as well as the readers of the other blog). Your heart and your passion to truly know God came through so clearly in this song. The first time I heard it I had to play it again and truly listen to the words.
Thank you!
RaVae
P.S. Lisa, I know nothing of your life but you sound like myself a year ago. If you have time please read the book "So You Don't Want to Go to Church Anymore" by Wayne Jacobson and Dave Coleman (no, I'm not telling you to quit going to church and neither does the book). It will help you understand why you are feeling the way you are and from there the Lord will direct your next move-whatever that may be! Many blessings to you!
Suzanne on November 24, 2009 at 12:30 pm.
I just read another blog about being authentic and that's why I like reading yours, Jenny. You admit the truths, whether it's making God smaller than He is or just dealing with the busyness of life. Recently my friend and I performed at church and we sang Aaron Shust's "To God Alone" and it wasn't perfect, but I love when it's spirit filled, it just makes my heart sore (I don't know how else to put it!) Thanks for your ongoing encouragement and authentic posts.
Anonymous on November 25, 2009 at 1:16 am.
As I have previously written, this is the best song ever…after a long silent time from God he allowed me a glimpse of His Holiness…it shook me to my core and both scared me and thrilled me. You have stated it perfectly and continue to be overwhelmed every time I hear your song…well done.
Mike
Anonymous on November 25, 2009 at 2:49 pm.
This song is awsome and I think it makes everyone come to their own realizations depending on where their walk with God is. Personally I like the line "What do I know of wounds that will heal my shame?" I guess I feel this way because it is sometimes hard to grasp the immensity of what Jesus did on the cross. I'm guilty like many others of knowing the story told over and over again that at times I've glossed over how meaningful and full of grace his sacrafice really was. Like Jenny said he is not our homeboy he's our SAVIOUR. At anyrate thats my 2cents.
Oh, if people want they can check out an old blog of Jenny's that tells more of how the song came about
go to her 3.24.2008 blog.
-A Blurker
Erin on November 25, 2009 at 3:27 pm.
My oh my…how God has used this song to reach people…to reach my friends and to reach me…it's amazing. I grew up in church (so did all of my friends). We knew what worship looked like, we knew what prayer sounded like, we knew where the scriptures were…we really knew all about it. But I didn't feel it. It was not real to me until I realized my need of God after I made a few (a LOT of) mistakes. Even now, I am so thankful that He picked me up and set me back on my feet but I know that I merely glimpsing the shore of His ocean as the song says. Thank you for sharing your gift with us…
Erin
http://my-alabaster-jar.blogspot.com/
Luciana Mira on November 26, 2009 at 3:08 pm.
Hey Jenny!
I really love this song.. It's coming my song these days that I'm in trouble with my heart. The song "Hope now" helps me a lot too.
Gos bless you and I really hope see u on brazil someday. I love your songs!
Kisses
Luciana Mira
Bethany on November 28, 2009 at 8:50 am.
Jenny–
I really like the way C.S. Lewis puts it: [paraphrase] You can't say the things Jesus said, do the things Jesus did and be just a nice guy. You are either the Son of God (as Jesus claimed) or you are on the mental level of a poached egg.
We have watered down God so much that we either forget or don't realize what a galvanizing figure he is. I agree, Isaiah 6 is a passage that makes that galvanization painfully obvious. But consider Paul's letter to the Ephesians…a pretty bold overall statement! "Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in the heavenly realms with every spiritual blessing in Christ."…"Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children"! (1:3, 5:1 respectively)
When I first started "seeing" God was when he showed me that He is beyond my understanding. Meaning he is both mercy and justice, both kindness and discipline. We can't treat the Bible like a buffet; only taking the warm and fuzzy scriptures and ignoring the ones that point to something bigger than us, nor vice versa.
"What Do I Know of Holy" was, for me, God's way of holding up a mirror. The whole song was like listening to what I would say if I were honest with myself. Even after hearing it 1 million+ times, I still get convicted of my know-it-all attitude; this is good because I don't ever want to get to a place where I think I'm beyond correction.
Jumping tangents, the whole "Jesus is my homeboy", church marketing thing gives me the heebie jeebies. Looking back at the early church, putting up billboards and ads on tv (or the historical equivalent) in their culture would have been ridiculous. Yet God blessed them. So why do we think we need to market the church? (rhetorical question but anyone feel free to chime in).
Wow, didn't expect all that to come out.
Thanks for having the guts to put "What Do I Know of Holy" on the record.
ayo stephens on November 28, 2009 at 7:50 pm.
wow! this is so inspiring. i also wrote about this song on my blog ( http://ayomidestephens.blogspot.com/2009/10/straight-from-heart-addison-road-what.html )this song is indeed a blessing!
Anonymous on December 2, 2009 at 11:25 am.
i have just heard this song last night for the first time..
wow…
i absolutely love it and know that
it surely was the Holy Spirit who gave the words to flight..
worship is my favorite thing in the world and i love to worship to this song..
thank you for listening to the Lord.
.. a grandma from wisconsin..
Billy on December 3, 2009 at 4:02 am.
Wow, I acctually came to your site to see if there was a meaning behind this song. Which as a worship leader as well God revealed the very same thing to me a few years ago. And Even though you expressed the meaning so beautifully through your blog I pray people can find that revelation of God for themselves. I believe God is doing it already to those that take a timeout to listen. Don't ever change how you guys minister because the Lord is using you and I haven't been ministered to by a CCM artist like that since I first heard Keith Green and I'm only 31. God Bless Addison Road. You guys rock with annoiting. Love it!
paula on December 19, 2009 at 5:28 am.
wow jenny i found your answers too the questions very good, i myself when i heard the song was very interested in how it was encourageing too the person hearing it. we truley don't understand totaly the depths of how holy god truley is. gods word also says his thoughts are not are thoughts and his ways are surely not are ways.. too know him is too spend time with him too get a real realtion ship with him. like your answers i can relate too your comments.comgrats on the baby mother of three awesome boys here they are 11.9.6 there great.. keep fighting the good fight of faith and singing too god.sharing your heart.. you never now the one person who might be listeing too the words that can relate.god is not some far away god he is a right now right here god and those words need too be expressed.love ya keep singing the truth and ask god for your words he will provide..
Christina on December 23, 2009 at 10:43 pm.
Hugs to you. What great answers to these questions. I have listened to this song many times over the year and have even posted about it on my blog. Your answers summed up many of the same feelings I have had while listening to this song. Every time I hear it I contemplate some new aspect of God, or the way I see God. The song touches me deeply as it does many people. It puts the way most of us feel into a song. Sometimes I just sit, listening to it over and over with my eyes closed and my head facing up to heaven. In that moment I can feel God and a little taste of Holy. And just for a second I glimpse what Holy might be.